pretty eyes

if I could I would lasso brash past crass cant’s throw them
in the surf run away from hurt grow divine in dirt-
to sympathize with pretty eyes welling up with tears,
the wasted years I peered at life in fear and strife
crying in my beer-
you are near though many miles away
I hear you clearly most sincerely since you went away
you love me more than you can say
you are my dear bright knight
fighting for the right to be okay
you are the tide I am the bay
you are water I am clay.

mend my mood

reprise alive the well
wisdoms like minions of pigeons
in the park feed on birdseed
a friendly stranger sells
I am caught between the passive
heart and salt among the lung
it is certainly an epiphany this side
of wellness working, the angels
mend my mood on a moonless Monday
afternoon-for in the gloom of
heartfelt ruin-in tune with
june-stewing in her own juices
till the good man took her by the hand and said to Mrs Kaplan your
daughter holds much water
no salt diet/should be bland-and as dad would emote-“then I wrote”–my
daddy would sing, “carry my body back to France, amid the bleeding
corpses-and then armed to the teeth i will rise
from my grave, for my emperor to do battle”.

the sentiment

lost in the sentiment
fertile mind a rocky climb
through silt and sediment
say what is meant to mend
for the time is evident
unwind the knotted weave
that causes you to grieve
to fall on bended knee
straining to be free
from hurt and pain
alone again it seems
if I a witness to your soul
maybe the only one
then keep me in your heart
and wear me like a shell.

the restless way

mid moment
waves splash spray spill foam covered rock
where vessels dock
fog seal seashells in the sand
ships tied to the pier upon the shore
whitecaps wake for
trolling trawlers sake
break against the rocks to the ocean floor
warmhearted
uncharted
the luck of the draw
finishing touches for
turning about in the wind
sailing in the breeze and then
taking on rough sea again
a night of star filled sky
redirects the eye
to find the restless way
letting go with willingness
in the wonder of the day.

the morning after

fried chicken smothered in gravy
lives put on hold unheard
to grieve would make me regret her
conceived to help her feel better
relieved to see the beauty in a girl
her eyes the bluest seas
to walk the grounds with tulip trees
how high the mighty graceful branches
caught the light swaying in prayer
for mama and papa and two baby bears
the dining room formal the Beacon Hill Chairs-
a china birdcage without a bird hanging on a heavy chain in front of
the bay window
told of life on Devonshire a family doing well
bitter herbs were Harold’s words fell apart our world
we weren’t doing too well-the tin man had no heart
a man who cannot love will not be well nor smart
we had cars vacations yachts expectations
Glenfiddish imported from Scotland
Dimple scotch from the UK
Tanqurey gin the best martini
Boodles gin don’t forget the olive
will never forgive the olive
Mouton Rothschild
red like his blood curdling screams
Dom Perignon-
how fortunate we felt we’d been
as ducks take to water
as Christ changed water into wine
dad should have drunk the holy water
and not have drowned his sorrows
for his lifetime
it wouldn’t have been so bad
but for the prescription drugs
the combination turned him insane
on a nighty basis a life too pained
never asked for help
it was too late he couldn’t stop blaming
the abused became the abuser
his mother the accused
dazed dementia he smiles and waves
forgetting a past
he never remembered
the morning after.

unrest

unrest relentless tide attempt to tempt a tempestuous temper-tide the
ocean black thick froth a darkest dankest pitch
water wields worried wakes wearing weary wreckage
rusty musty pillion worst the thirst call upon the stars to lead you
home from deepest depths remorse resents rain upon the oblique
breakwater
from mooring in the sea, steer ships by starlight moon eye bask in
swells that lift fell some languid
star struck sound winded-bid the eve a heart of night ephemeral where
visions play a gentle
moment memorable, to lose the bliss the loss of this
incredible, dashed upon rash rocks
regrettable fog a thick opaque shuts the eye
the sight of plausible-escape the rage a port of call
sail away on a mirrored sea, reflections on
silver water, smooth as glass may be.

early spring robin

tears of joy tears of sorrow they’re all the same
to leap across fond responses
to offer solemnity
I speak your name in everywhere to blossom
you are my early spring robin
to bring the warmth that hasn’t been
we talk talk like honey bees that spare the sting
in touch with much we love so much to hurt no more
of everything I’ve asked of you you give me more
in any case we rush to race a gift of grace
to see your pretty face again once more
at my nesting place where you may rest restore
my heart is healing with your feeling
the creation meaningful bright
you give me light refresh my life
as nothing could before
I miss you day and night
I love you baby blue
as the night dreams of day.

the more I love

cast a line unbroken bond an anchor fonder foibles gone, in the blush
of summer warm a trip enthused
to dip my muse in leaves of gold to leave a portrait mold the mask
clay crazed with ink on porcelain, pinches pots tall and slim what
have me nots walls thin obscure red cadmium, a chance to paint my
heroine
upon the gates to fence me in-in bravery to battle sin
one settles for a common theme as more distraught a flaw have been,
but for a whim to win or lose with everything-amused the losses
prove-moving me to choose the blues/
pink hues in skies of gray-and were it yet the way
I feel for you today, the more I love, the words
have more to say, in gratitude and prayer I try
again to care
coming about in the wind without
coming apart as it seems, to win my dreams.

centering potential

love is the quintessential elemental
guiding star, that glistens in arabesque fluted crystal
shine to bless limitless time shared in a heartbeat
with sound so sweet as nearer the month of May
merry a nights day very well tells the way secret squall the seagull rises
falls across every mile of the bay-stay heart bright
sight the moon white in pale blue sky
and I-wonder what to say to show this love of mine
is not Blaise-I promise solace in the art of honesty
in sobriety there is a quality in centering potential
the personal exceptional acceptance of kindness.

in the main

cool moon loom cloud strewn
bathe in the wave a stormy brew
pick up the pieces of artifact
dormant adornment renewed
love forever resolves
the heart of hearts is rock
to waste not one minute longer
fell the faint repose
a scent of essential rose
causes me to live again
compose the pearls of prose
to know you in the world
meeting you on the apron of the proscenium
applauding the prologue well writ
hung lanterns like half moons the theatre is well lit
I chug my mug drinking half the carafe
no one laughs
good humor seems a fault-old habits heed to halt
the even measure of a tender talk
insulted by the casualty of salt upon the broiled beef
the look in eyes foretelling of their disbelief
regardless of the hour a restless breath
would you not care the heart would break
a jealous death would take my soul
in darkness rivers I to drown
without the loveliness of you to find
one crystal clear morning
with love and drawing
memories in mind
encased in lace and gold finery
in ancient places old fiery
remembrance enfold a dynasty
in weather cold and blustery
spring chill the air is bold musty
a pause to paint the plausible rain
to let go of the worry
as time heals all fury in the main.